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[guingel]

mm, something else. I've had some conversations sitting around in private entries, I was talking about my goal of betterment of self ;) lol. I'm going for perfection, and hell, I think it's possible to reach it. Maybe not for me, but I have a lifetime to work on it, and in the meantime I'm just going to try to be the best person I can. And here are the things I need to work on:

1) conceited--almost complacency. Which I've been working on yanking myself out of, I have to insult myself in my head really harshly (meghan says I shouldn't insult myself--it's not like I have low self-esteem or anything, I just make these ridiculous statements in my head. And stuff. And kinda I've improved from before, but I still have a lot of work to do so I really can't get complacent.)
2) I still lose my temper too quickly. I really need to work on that. DX (I've gotten so much better at keeping myself out of trouble though. I know when it's not worth it.)
3) connected with #2--I need to slow down. a lot. just take things slower and think before I speak. That's part of why I prefer IMing to talking.
4) I'm really fecking lazy. And a total slob. (i don't know. . . this might be chronic. I've gotten better about hw, but this past week I've kinda fallen apart. Partly because I wasn't feeling well, but partly because with the AP over I haven't felt the need for work. I'm not really explaining it right, but I kinda feel like the years over. >.< Just a few more weeks!)
5) I hope this isn't true, and I think I'm getting better, but I'm a little little bit judgemental and that's worrying me, but I'm working on it.
6) various little selfishness type of things, not as much of a problem as they used to be

I'm sure there are other's that I can't think of, but that's the list right now. any thoughts?

curses, Katie's taken my spot on the couch. She'll probably go onto the computer when I get off though.

Comments

[shateredwings.livejournal.com]

you don't need to better yourself. i think your a really great person. you're not weird, all those things are pretty normal. and if they bother you that much, they're easily fixable. but your an amazing person with a contagious personality. don't trade that in for anything in the world. :D

[guingel.livejournal.com]

I think everyone shoudl try to better themselves. Being a good person is important to me. No one cares about these things anymore, but I do. Like, the way I see it, the purpose of life is to make yourself happy and to make other people happy. Well, I've got the first down as well as I can, I'm pretty content. But I need to work on the second one, making other people happy. And that'll help make me more happy. Doesn't the world need as many good people as possible? Shouldn't we all strive to be the best we can? Wouldn't a lot of problems be solved if people just tried to be nicer to each other? (laziness doesn't have much to do with being nice to each other, that's just something it's better not to have, if I want to do well.)
I'm not a member of an organized religion, I have my own religion, but this is pretty much the base of it.

but thank you very much for your comments :D warm fuzzies!

[tckma.livejournal.com]

Bah, everyone can make themselves better people. Once you stop trying that, you've lost it all.

I should make up a list like this. Though it will likely be rather long. :(

[guingel.livejournal.com]

don't be silly! your main problem is that you won't let yourself be happy! :-/