disgust

Apr. 2nd, 2009 11:14 pm
Today as I was going up the stairs exiting the subway when I got home from work, a guy touched my ass. It really upset me. It fucking sucked. I felt really powerless - like, it wasn't a pinch or anything so i felt like he could claim it was an accident - cos it was more like he brushed against me. Except that he had just paused on the landing, and I thought he was just waiting for someone or adjusting his shoe or whatever, so I went in front of him and he immediately started up right behind me. So then afterwards I felt stupid, too, like I shouldn't have let him do that.

I just stopped short and made him go in front of me the rest of the way, but I wish I'd done something else. His pants were, like, around his knees so I thought about just hooking a belt loop and pulling them down. But I thought that would just cause more trouble than it was worth. I should have said something, though. I wish my first reaction had been to shout something.

As I said in an IM conversation earlier, it's so sickening. I was wearing a skirt, therefore he thinks he has the right to touch me. I wasn't in any danger, there were lots of people around, so it's not like I really felt threatened, and I certainly wasn't physically injured. It just left me feeling vulnerable and used for his creepy desires and disgusted and just shaken.

::sigh:: Thanks for trying to ruin my week, fucker.


Hopefully I'll bounce back, I wanna do something fun on Sunday. 80s pop songs were very helpful, as was the magnificence of Nikola Tesla. I will probably write more about him in the near future. He's like Shackleton if Shackleton was evil and a mad scientist who invented electromagnetism. By which I mean he's a historical figure who is larger than life and stranger than fiction.


Ugh. Shit. I hate the feeling that this guy thought my body was his to touch. Maybe it doesn't seem like a big deal, or maybe people have this happen to them all the time (I hope not) but it doesn't happen to me often and it sucks. And shouldn't happen.

Date: 2009-04-03 11:56 am (UTC)
ext_38043: (My money's on Subaru - jisatsu_)
From: [identity profile] elyndys.livejournal.com
Not that it makes a difference, but I think he probably didn't think he had the right to touch you - I doubt that sort of thing very much matters to him, cos he's just a creepy bastard. :|

I also reiterate everything [livejournal.com profile] kegom said! :]

Date: 2009-04-06 02:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guingel.livejournal.com
. . . Huh? Maybe he didn't think about if it was right to touch me, but if he didn't think he had the right, he . . . wouldn't have done it. "it's in front of me, I want to touch it, so I will. why not?" He doesn't think "that's not my body, I don't know her, so I should keep my hands off" - he thinks he has the right to touch me if he wants to.

Date: 2009-04-06 02:27 pm (UTC)
ext_38043: (Skull mouse hoodie - numetto)
From: [identity profile] elyndys.livejournal.com
Ahh, I see what you're saying - I guess I was thinking of it being more like, if a guy gets pissed off with someone, he doesn't think he has the *right* to punch him in the face - but that doesn't stop him doing it anyway. ...But then me and rights, we have a complicated relationship. XD Legacy of my philosophy degree! ^^'

Date: 2009-04-06 02:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guingel.livejournal.com
Yeah, I wasn't using a technical definition - just trying to pinpoint one of the things that bothers me the most, which is that people like this aren't taught by society that they really should not be touching women whenever they want - that they, well, don't have the right to do so. I think it is getting better. . . there's sort of a vague general awareness that wolf-whistling at women is offensive and stuff? Still a long way to go, though. :(

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