worries and lack thereof

[guingel]

well. It's been an interesting day. I think I've mentioned here how I feel really afraid of things that I don't know about? I mean, not like space or whatever, just stuff that I can't control and all that. Mainly college. I've gotten very worried about college because, to start, I've never had an idea where I want to go or where I should even start looking. But today we asked David, our portable reference book, what we should do (he's going to Williams College) and he said he started by looking at the "propoganda" the colleges sent him and stuff. Well, me and Katie haven't gotten any yet. But he also told us we should go to the Princeton Review site (http://www.review.com) and they have a test you can take that will kinda pair you up with colleges that you might be interested in. And obviously I'm not going to go by this test exclusively, but I feel so, so much better because it's given me someplace to start, I have some places that I can look into and see if I'm interested in and stuff.

so that's one thing off my mind. much relieved. cos I really had next to no knowledge about colleges, I had no clue where I wanted to go or where to start looking.

Now another thing that's been weighing on my mind a bit, and that's a little more urgent: a job. I would really like to work this summer. But I don't want to be a clerk or something, I don't want to work at Pathmark or Burger King because I would suck at it and it would make me unhappy. I'd rather do something clerical--filing maybe, and I'm also a good typist, so I'm hoping I can do something in that area--desk-type work. But again, I don't know where to start, where to look, what to do. ay. (ay is oy in laura language. I say it more in my head than out loud.) I'd want to work part time, because I do need the summer to recover. Maybe as a junior I'll work more? I know my brother didn't get a job until he was a junior, and then he worked at Baskin Robbins. . . So I'd rather not be like him in both of those respects. And uhm, the other reason I'd like to work part time is because I'd still like to volunteer at Bethpage on Wednesdays.

did my english homework today. she basically reassigned last night's work, but since we'd kinda gone over them in class I was able to at least kinda do it (albeit poorly, but hell). Oh, and I asked her why she told us that we can't have one-word themes and then gave us some. And she told me it was because she didn't want to write the full sentences on the board. ::shakes:: That pisses me off.
I almost had some sort of a seizure in gym. People defending my English teacher and trashing the student teacher pisses me off. I don't like the student teacher either, she's dumb as a slug, but the teacher is just as much to blame.

Anyway. I finished all my written homework, I just need to study for a chem test. And maybe do some work on my Great Britian timeline thing. . . I dunno though. I'm confused. But nevermind.

For those who are interested, I took the college quiz thing a couple times, and this is the latest thing I've got--I've been futzing with different areas.

Reach Schools
Middlebury College  
Wesleyan University  
Tufts University  
Wellesley College  
Smith College  
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Good Match Schools
Brandeis University
Boston University  
Trinity College (CT)  
Colgate University  
College of the Holy Cross  
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Safety Schools
State University of New York College at Geneseo    
Bennington College  
College of the Atlantic  
Simon's Rock College of Bard    
Binghamton University (State University of New York)    
 

(I've been looking at it and ruling out some things, like Colgate University, which is apparently heavily into sports, and the College of the Holy Cross--for obvious reasons. I didn't really look into the safety and reach, this is just preliminary)

I don't know how the whole "College of the Holy Cross" thing got on there, actually, cos I told them that it was very important to me that I went to a school with no religious affiliation. O.o ah well. I guess it was a good match otherwise or something.

Another time when I took it I had a whole bunch of majors, and then I took it again narrowing it down each time, so this is basically with just Fine Arts as a major. It's kinda too bad cos there was one, Oberlin University I think, which looked really good (from the very basic info they give) saying that the "left-minded" undergraduates are more interested in "political debates, concerts, and plays than drinking and sports," which appeals to me, if it's true, but they didn't offer Fine Arts as a major, I think. But I'll keep it in mind.

definitely had something to say. fuck it. I feel like it was something good.

well, have been downloading new tori amos and dar williams songs.

Comments

[cloudtrader.livejournal.com]

Will you be going away to college (staying in the dorms that is) or commuting from home?

[guingel.livejournal.com]

you know, we were just talking about that. I think I'd want to go away. I've always associated college in my head with leaving home, it'd be too weird to be getting up every morning and going to college the same way I get up every morning and go to high school (well, not the same way, but still). And it depends on how far I go. Pretty much all the places on that list are in New England (or NY) so I should be with in driving distance of my house--I'm kinda hoping I'll be close enough to home that I can visit semi-regularly. My parents are pushing in the gentlest way for Barnard (where my mom went) but I really don't want to go to college in a city--they depress me (at least, NYC does, even though I love it, I'd never want to live there) and I think they understand that.

[cloudtrader.livejournal.com]

Ah.

[the-leewit.livejournal.com]

Come and visit <a href="http://www.shimer.edu>Shimer!.</a> Much weirdness and goodness follow here, and although no-one's ever heard of us, we're third in the nation for per capita graduates going on to receive doctorates, and in the 98% percentile for average student score for GRE's (according to _U.S New and World Report_, that is.) It's a good place to come for year or two.

[guingel.livejournal.com]

ooooh! it sounds cool--I don't know though, Illinois is a little farther than I'd like to travel. . .

[renniekins.livejournal.com]

I went to Amherst College, which is the "arch-rival" of Williams. Also in Mass. I liked it a whole lot... I took a class at Smith, and that seemed like a nice place. The nice thing about Amherst/Smith/UMass/MtHolyoke/Hampshire is that they have this "5-college" program which allows you to take courses at the other 4 schools if you want, to broaden your experience. Personally I can't imagine going to an all-girls school, but to each her own!

[guingel.livejournal.com]

lol. wow. arch-rivals. that's nifty. The "5-college" thing sounds really cool. I don't know if I'd mind an all-girls school, but it probably wouldn't be my first choice. i'll see what happens. I think I'd like to apply to a lot of places and see where I get in and stuff.

::is looking at the amherst site:: wow. this looks shibby!