k.d. lang, concert, root canal #2, rehearsal

[guingel]

>.< I want to update more often. Cos by now I can't remember anything that's happened since I last updated. Or, in fact, when I last updated. And I meant to do this half an hour ago so I'd still have time to shower and finish my studying, but. . . ah well! I got distracted, and at first the internet was down.

Anyway, I spent the whole weekend ogling k.d. lang. I have, in fact, made icons, which I might use soon. I feel a redesign coming on, next time I have the time. Anyway, I was reading through Rebecca's Dictionary of Queer Slang and Culture and I ran across k.d. lang. So I did a search on google and I found pictures and I was completely entranced. [you know, this entry doesn't really sound like me. I apologize. I was reading through a couple of communities where they use very bad grammar and I'm kind of like a monkey--I pick up grammar and writing styles and stuff from things that I've been reading.] Anyway, I found her to be extremely sexy, and I think it's a kind of different experience, having a crush on someone who is attracted to your gender. Because I don't think I've ever had a crush on a lesbian before. Women, yes (exhibit A: Idina Menzel); but no one who would, you know, be attracted to me in any way. (I do realize that k.d. lang is not going to meet me. I'm having trouble figuring out what I want to say here. . .) And I haven't had this big a crush since. . . middle school or something. So we'll see what happens ;) I've been having a hell of a time finding mp3 files, but dad says he's going to buy me a CD. or 2 CDs. I gave him the names of Invincible Summer and Live by Request, so we'll see what happens. And I also found music videos, which I have been watching over and over. lol. This is so strange. Having a crush again, I mean. :) I also have an mp3 file of Constant Craving, thanks to aes256. And I've been looking at pictures every time I'm online.
Of course, I still don't have any real life experiences by which I can judge my sexuality. I mean, I'm just going to act as if I'm bi and figure out if I don't like a gender later on (which might be rough on the person who helps me realize i don't like men or women, but what else can I do?) but I do like to know these things. And I don't want to be, like, fake. That's maybe not the word. Dishonest? ::shrug:: I can't put it into words. k.d. lang kinda helps, because I definitely have a bigger crush on her than I've had on a woman, or a man in a while, but I find her most attractive in suits. lol. ::sigh:: (actually, that's a look I want to try, if I had any nice suits! or if my brother was more my size. . .) And I don't know any girls who like girls in real life, as far as I know, and I don't have a crush on anyone in real life anyway. Well, kinda these two guys, but. . . Anyway. I'll just keep being confused, I guess.

Yesterday we went to see Tuck Everlasting with Perin, who has an enormous crush on the guy playing Jesse (we're all lovestruck this weekend ;) and I love the book, so we all enjoyed it. (Katie too. lol.) I think they did a really good job.
And in the evening we went to Grandpa's house. it was fun.

I went to see a Rockappella concert, too! That was Saturday night. My yearly Rockappella concert (geez, I've changed since then. I think. I still seem to enjoy concerts more than my parents--I get really into things ;). The bass, Barry, has left since the last one, which is too bad because he was cool. But the new bass, George Carlin (I think) has a wonderful voice as well! I had such a fantastic time. :D It was great!

On Friday I went back to the root canal place, to get the one I had filled. But I told them that the other side was hurting, and asked them to take an X-ray. He said that they could either fill the first side, or just do the second! It had really been bothering me, so I told him to do the second one. lol. That was surprising. So now I can't really chew on either side. meep! But I go back a week from tomorrow, and then a week after that. . . and then hopefully I'm done.

I've been going to rehearsal a lot lately. it's fun. we haven't had an excessive amount of work. And I really enjoyed the 3 day weekend. But, ahem. . . I really need to study. lol. Lately I've been getting the highest grade on social studies tests. Well, all 2 of them ;) And I would kinda like to stay up there. :-/ (way to put a little pressure on myself, right! no, but I do want to do well, and this time I didn't really read through one of the chapters that the test is on, so I'm kinda trying to go over it now.)

Comments

[ryoken3d.livejournal.com]

There's a fair amount of k.d. lang on Kazaa ( If you haven't all ready looked there..)

[guingel.livejournal.com]

no, I haven't looked there. Actually, I'm not really familiar with it. . .

[ryoken3d.livejournal.com]

For MP3's Kazaa ( or better yet Kazaa lite .. it has the spyware removed ;) ) is the way to go.. http://doa2.host.sk/ is the site for Kazaa lite..


You can find almost any MP3 you want on there :)

[guingel.livejournal.com]

grrrrrr. . . they don't have one for macs. :( (unless they had one and I didn't see it. . .)

[ryoken3d.livejournal.com]

I looked around.. seems the only major ones that have a mac version, you have to pay for :(

[(Anonymous)]

Awwwww... well, obviously, I knew about this, you told me. I actually didn't know it went to this extent though. Good for Laura... and yeah, I think you have the right idea, don't worry about the sexuality thing, that'll work itself out (besides, if the person who makes you figure out one way or another is a good person, they'll understand, and if not, well, you were going to break it off anyways). Btw... what two guys :-)? Or are you just referring to people I know you find cute anyway? Anyways, can't wait to come back home and see you (well, and your sister, of course) next week.

Dave

[guingel.livejournal.com]

hehe. It's fun. I get to be giggly and swoon ;) I've missed obsessions. lol.
That's a good point about the person who "helps me". I just don't want it to be like, "augh! I turned her gay!" or anything. >.O

lol. just the people you already know about ;) That's why I said "kinda". It's not really a full-blown crush. I don't even know them all that well, so it's ok. Low stress.

oh yeah! you're going to be home next week! ::claps:: :D

[cloudtrader.livejournal.com]

k.d. lang, huh? I don't really get crushes on celebrities, I'm more for pining away for people I actually know. The closest I get are fictional characters -- Ray Kowalski from due South, Marvel's Spider-Man (NOT movie Spider-Man) and Spider-Girl, Damien from the Anita Blake books, Methos from Highlander, Susan Ivanova from Babylon 5, etcetera. I think the closest I've come to a celebrity crush is John Cusack (or possibly Callum Keith Rennie). Anyway, it seems to be that you're handling your interest in a mature way. It's good that you're not limiting yourself and that you're allowing yourself to explore the bisexual option.

[guingel.livejournal.com]

thank you :)

I get crushes on celebrities, but not a whole lot. Like, I haven't had a crush on a real person since Idina Menzel ;) It's been all comic book and cartoon characters and what-not. lol. But I also don't like to crush on people that are really famous. I think I have a low opinion of them somewhere. So like, k.d. lang is famous--but she's not really popular, and if what I've read about her is true and everything, she's someone that I can respect. Which is important to me, even with crushes. And I crush on Idina Menzel, and Drew Varley, who is another theater actor, and Graham Chapman, who is gay and dead. . .
But I don't like to fantasize about real people--never ever people I know--it makes me feel icky. And sometimes like I'm using them. And with celebrities, I'm not like one of those people who gets jealous of their significant other and wants to like, marry a member of N'SYNC (I know a lot of girls like that >.<).

I haven't had a real crush on someone I know since at least freshman year. It's been a strange experience for me. That's probably just because I'm in high school and I simply don't know anyone who suits me. But it has made my life much easier.

[bandie528.livejournal.com]

hi, my name's Laura, and I was feeling silly/inspired, and started a community for people named *gasp* Laura! if you'd like to join laura_unite, either reply to this comment or comment my journal! Later!

you saw rockapella?!?! i'm sooooooooo jealous!!!