guys, I heard the most amazing OMGDRAMAZ outside my window last night, it was kinda awesome

I just wasted a lot of money by doing something really dumbfuck, and it makes me sick. But I was with an awesome friend who made me feel better and bought me Reese's Peanut Butter Eggs which are the Platonic form of Reese's, and I was able to help her out by accompanying her shopping until I was dumbfuck and angry at myself and sulky, but then she helped me pull out of it.

I like 5 L'Arc en Ciel songs now! But I don't particularly like the PVs for any of the songs I like. I like their early PVs in which Hyde is all hair and dresses and sass. Also, I like the PV for Hurry XMas, in which Hyde is all hair and bedroom eyes and sass, and Santas feeling him up. I should also add that I definitely DID NOT make a Hyde-only version of said PV, because that would be ridiculous. >.> I do love Tetsu and Ken, though. I seriously have to respect a man who smokes as much as Ken does. I hate smoking, but once you get to the point he's at, it's just. . . so excessive, it deserves respect. That is commitment.

But, sadly, as I get more used to seeing him, the impact of his appearance is diminishing. I don't see myself moving onto other jrockers, though. They wear too much make-up, and too many silly clothes, and also sometimes have facial piercings. Plus, my next fandom has to be one with really sexy fic. ::taps fingers::

Also, new!fandom fanfic authors: Stop with the first person. Why is there SO MUCH first person in the Hyde and Gackt/Hyde fandom? It's ridiculous. And. . . why so many stories in which Hyde was raised as a girl? Has he actually said that? Also, it's a plot point that I can see myself getting behind, except that they're all done appallingly badly. Oh well. Didn't I say I'd only be in this fandom for a week or two?

Work is. . . somewhat under control. XD Researching copyright law. Guys. Word to the wise. Don't download music files, the RIAA wants your firstborn. The MPAA isn't really sweet and cuddly either.

I'm not sure how I feel about livejournal these days. There are a lot of things I'm torn about but the one I have the most immediate control over is that I'm not sure what sort of thing I want to write about in it. I like having it, and I like the idea that I'll be able to look back in many years and see what was going on with me during these stages of my life (I already missed most of college, so. . .) but I haven't really been feeling like updating that much. Also, I'm not sure how I want to balance "it's my journal" self-indulgence vs the fact that I am implicitly asking people to read the entries if I don't make them all private. And if I did, I'd never write, I can't keep a private journal. So even though I said I like the idea that I'll be able to look back on it, I also like the idea that I'm communicating, that the words are going out somewhere. It's part of why I almost never filter if I can help it. Anyway. I think there's just not that much interesting stuff going on in my head these days, I blame school, ironically. I think about sex a lot, it's what happens when you aren't getting any, but I feel bad writing about that all the time. XD So yeah. Just trying to figure out what I want to put in here.

dinner! and generally exclamation point-worthy things!

It doesn't come across in my last entry because of the dumbfuckage and my LJ ambivalence, but since yesterday I've actually been in a really good mood. I woke up on Sunday and indulged in some L'Arc-age and then I was able to go back to sleep until exactly the time before I needed to go to brunch, so I didn't have to nap in the afternoon, and I got to brunch at just the right time and it was sunny and I was happy and smiling. And today I was in a good mood, more or less, despite my Japanese History midterm (on which I think I said lots of good facts, but might not have said that great things about the big picture) and the creepy abundance of not-quite-ladybugs that were on the windowsill near me. The only time I was PO'ed was in my first class where people were giving presentations and went way too long and were boring.

And my mood just got better because dinner was awesome! I actually ate a lot, I was finally able to finish everything on my plate AND! AND! I went back for seconds! :D For me, this is a huge accomplishment. Plus, I'm trying to put on a little weight. 5-10 pounds would make me happy, I might be under 100 pounds at the moment, definitely around that. I'm choosing to not believe scales just now. But anyway. I had two baked potatoes with sour cream and salsa and they were soooo good. And I really, really thrive on baked potatoes. When I came back from England, I actually looked the best in my life - I weighed the most, and my skin was really clear and healthy, and it was because I was eating so many potatoes there. I am a girl designed to live on potatoes. Not the skins, though. I left my skins behind. But in addition to the two baked potatoes and their toppings, I also had four spare ribs and two servings of delicious peas!! I love peas (although not as much as SOME people) but Smith peas are often bad and these were really tasty. And I had two glasses of milk. :D Perhaps I will top it off with some ice cream later.

And I get to be super-duper productive tonight because we have a layout staff so I don't have to go to the Sophian! So I'm going to get loads and loads done on my paper and presentation so that I'm good to go home on Friday. Seriously. I'm totally going to be productive.

Anyway, to share the good mood, I have and AMAZING TOKIO picture, one of the ones Mabo brought in for his Hanamaru Cafe appearance (HanaCafe love!).

( WHY DOESN'T TOKIO GET SUBS? I MUST KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING )