does this make any sense? I'm tired.

[guingel]

ahh! I've finished reading and commenting on every entry! That is, every entry that I plan to. I skipped a couple and I feel like I've missed one and now I'm feeling terribly guilty. ::goes back:: Oh, well. I was rather too lazy to read it but it was one that I couldn't have commenting on anyway. I hope.

::collapses::

I was feeling rather depressed earlier. downer of a weekend. I suppose. yes.

hugs? send me hugs and chocolate. I feel annoying. And hypocritical. augh! I think that if I read a post like this from someone else I'd be annoyed at them. ::thinks:: ugh. laura!! ::smacks self:: snap out of it!!
well, I suppose now I'll have to post it. well, in years to come I'll be able to see that yes, I have changed since I wrote odd, self-pitying journal entries. (I'm being optimistic and assuming that I will have changed.)

there's some stuff I should care less about, I suppose, for my happiness and peace of mind (tiggs know what I'm talking about, I think) but I also love caring and the fact that I do.

Oh yes, formal apology for tiggspanther for complaining to him earlier. XP You're so cool. Don't talk to me when I'm in a bad mood, yes? ;)

(I'll cover the weekend tomorrow)

Comments

[diziara.livejournal.com]

Ya know what? You're weird, and that's why we all like you. Quit stressing over how you seem to others, 'cause unless I'm a super huge freak (which I won't say I'm not, but I'm not saying I am) you are hardly as bad as you seem to think you are.

[tiggspanther.livejournal.com]

Don't worry about it. You didn't come across badly or anything, more like someone who just had stuff she needed to get off her chest.

It happens to us all.

[tckma.livejournal.com]

mmm, self-pity. Seems I'm feeling a lot of self-pity these days. :(

[guingel.livejournal.com]

thank you very much :)
it seems like I worry about what others think of me, and I kinda do, but it's more cos I respect you guys and value your opinions, and I like you so I don't want to be annoying. I get paranoid occasionally.

but the real problem with this entry is that I felt like I was being hypocritical. it's a little tricky to explain, but I really don't like hypocrites, so if I behave hypocritically, it's doubly so.

[guingel.livejournal.com]

whew! :D Thanks a lot--for listening and for being so nice about it ^_^

[guingel.livejournal.com]

self-pity is such a pain! I mean, it's so hard to get out of it--it's not a pleasant emotion, but none-the-less you just want to wallow in it. I know people who spend so much time pitying themselves when they shouldn't, that eventually they have a reason to >.<
Sometimes there's nothing you can do--but try to snap out of it! :-/

[diziara.livejournal.com]

*blinks* Okay, I think I followed that. But I still think you should not worry about it too much. If you're getting annoying, you'll hear from me, and I won't be angery until you fail to fix it, m'kay?

[guingel.livejournal.com]

ok :)

[cloudtrader.livejournal.com]

Hugs and chocolate, hmm? I wonder if the chocolate will melt when I ship it...

[guingel.livejournal.com]

::grins:: yesterday we were at David's, and his sister offered him some white chocolate, which is evidently very hard, so she gave him a little axe (e? no e?) with it! O_O in the end he gave up and just bit the thing, which was kinda bad cos he just got his wisdom teeth out (and has chipmunk cheeks!) and his mouth is all sore. But David with an axe was scary.

that wasn't really on topic, but whatever :D