does this make any sense? I'm tired.

ahh! I've finished reading and commenting on every entry! That is, every entry that I plan to. I skipped a couple and I feel like I've missed one and now I'm feeling terribly guilty. ::goes back:: Oh, well. I was rather too lazy to read it but it was one that I couldn't have commenting on anyway. I hope.

::collapses::

I was feeling rather depressed earlier. downer of a weekend. I suppose. yes.

hugs? send me hugs and chocolate. I feel annoying. And hypocritical. augh! I think that if I read a post like this from someone else I'd be annoyed at them. ::thinks:: ugh. laura!! ::smacks self:: snap out of it!!
well, I suppose now I'll have to post it. well, in years to come I'll be able to see that yes, I have changed since I wrote odd, self-pitying journal entries. (I'm being optimistic and assuming that I will have changed.)

there's some stuff I should care less about, I suppose, for my happiness and peace of mind (tiggs know what I'm talking about, I think) but I also love caring and the fact that I do.

Oh yes, formal apology for tiggspanther for complaining to him earlier. XP You're so cool. Don't talk to me when I'm in a bad mood, yes? ;)

(I'll cover the weekend tomorrow)

weekend of the dead :-/

I'm going to go to Bethpage tomorrow. Mom is fixing the skirt now. (I outgrew it just a little bit. It was a little tight last year, but I'm still taking this as a good sign) I'm a little bit nervous. I haven't been there in a year. And I'll have to get up early. And talk to people I don't know. Frankly, I'm not that great at it--I make it a lecture, and most of the people there can make it like a conversation. ::sigh:: ah well. It's good for me to get out of the house, and I'm helping. I don't really like the school groups. stressful. >.< Ah well. Uhm. I always feel pretty good at the end of the day though. And tomorrow shouldn't be too hot. I hope things go all right. I wonder where I'll be placed. So far I've only been at the store (which I knew very well--I've forgotten a lot now.) (well, I knew the house section. I couldn't do the shop section), the farm (which I can do, and which I like pretty well) and the tavern (which I don't like).

we'll see what happens this year.

This also means I gotta wake up at 8:15, so I can't stay up too late.

( Let me see if I can write up the weekend. )