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on happiness. and a drawing.
Apr. 29th, 2002 07:47 pmnew and very beautiful icon featuring art from the enormously talented saka: http://saka.syste.ms (but haha! due to odd site problems and redecorating this picture is hidden, and you won't be able to find it XD There's actually a hidden section within the currently hidden section, but I know how to get to everything. lol.)
::blink:: anyway. . . I've no idea what saka thinks of people using hir work, even with credit. . . so I'm just not going to ask. An extremely evil thing to do, I know. >D I'd put the address on the icon, but I feel that people would think it was my site if I did that. And while I really really really wish it was--it's not. Saka is a professional, who's working on Last Shot (colorist? I think. . .) and has work in The BESM (Big Eyes Small Mouth) books. Oops. I'm showing off. . . but it's not me. I don't know. And it's not like "ooh, I know a published artist" or anything because I'm really not a close personal friend of saka's ;)
Anyway. . . I've gotten a lot of work done--finished my DBQ and my Experimental Procedure (the first for SS, the latter for Chem) both of which are due Wednesday. And I did my english and french, I just have some math to do. So I'm in good shape. I'm glad I've gotten everything done because tomorrow I'm going to head over to the orthodontists to get my mouth checked out. Something is moving in there. The rubber bands pull it up, and then when I take them off to chew, when I put my teeth together it gets pushed back into place. Most likely it's the metal thing that goes around the very last tooth. Which is bad, I'm not sure what'll happen--but hopefully it's not the tooth itself!! It was odd though--it just happened randomly in the middle of chem, not while I was eating anything chewy or hard. . . very worrisome.
Well, I was on the radio today! lol. . . kinda. I said one thing: "the Holy Roman Emperor" XD Cos the question was like, "which had the least power in the 16th century" and then we got choices. . I don't know. The radio thing was interesting, it went well, I suppose. . . but it's too complicated and I don't feel like explaining it. XP (everyone breathes a sigh of relief--admit it!! ;)
we ended up staying quite late after school. Turns out one of the few things David likes is arguing. Just for the sake of arguing. I like arguing too, but only if it's with a purpose, if both sides are open to new ideas. I like being exposed to other points of view. Yeah, I want to be right, but I want to be right because I am right, not because i have my way or because other people agree with me. Dave just likes to argue -_- Anyway, he's. . . decidedly odd. Because he's completely sane. Rational. Emotionless. David feels it's better to be content all the time than happy some of the time but unhappy some of the time. He wants to maintain one level. I'll be the first to say that dramatic highs and lows are very very bad. But I think you should find a medium between the two--find a level that is right for you. Now I don't know. Maybe David's way is best, but I really don't think so. Like in the Godfather, Nino, who just didn't care enough to stay alive--you have to care! You have to enjoy yourself, enjoy life, be happy! The unhappy times can show that you care--apathy is a killer! ("life slow, think 'why bother,' and leave a note saying good-bye," as Sexton put it in Death: The High Cost of Living) I mean, I don't have any way of proving this, but I feel that. . . well, say there's a general happiness content, a big pool of your happiness, all the happiness you've had in your life. Maybe unhappiness drains the pool a bit, I don't know. But I just have this feeling that the pool will be more full if you do experience--things! Life! The highs and lows! And the happiness is of a better, more satisfying quality than the complacency that David has, your life is fuller. Like a weekend where i sit around and use the computer compared to one where I go out and do something. No, I'm not unhappy sitting at my computer, and I don't get car sick or tired, I don't have to get up, I can sleep. But at the end of the weekend I just feel better having done something. My life is richer. When I go into the city I can get saddened by some of the things I see there. But that doesn't mean I should stop going into the city, because I have a really good time there, that more than balances the sadness. And the sadness, the compassion and caring that I feel, it's important. I shouldn't stop caring to save myself the pain that comes with it. It also makes me, I think, a fuller, better, rounder, more solid person. You can't grow and change if you don't experience. Also, David's mere stability and sanity make him scary and unstable. I don't know. It's not right. What is it that Delirium said about Emperor Norman I? (I love that one!!!) I think it was, "His madness keeps him sane"? It's not normal to be sane!! lol. ;)
( new drawing )
::blink:: anyway. . . I've no idea what saka thinks of people using hir work, even with credit. . . so I'm just not going to ask. An extremely evil thing to do, I know. >D I'd put the address on the icon, but I feel that people would think it was my site if I did that. And while I really really really wish it was--it's not. Saka is a professional, who's working on Last Shot (colorist? I think. . .) and has work in The BESM (Big Eyes Small Mouth) books. Oops. I'm showing off. . . but it's not me. I don't know. And it's not like "ooh, I know a published artist" or anything because I'm really not a close personal friend of saka's ;)
Anyway. . . I've gotten a lot of work done--finished my DBQ and my Experimental Procedure (the first for SS, the latter for Chem) both of which are due Wednesday. And I did my english and french, I just have some math to do. So I'm in good shape. I'm glad I've gotten everything done because tomorrow I'm going to head over to the orthodontists to get my mouth checked out. Something is moving in there. The rubber bands pull it up, and then when I take them off to chew, when I put my teeth together it gets pushed back into place. Most likely it's the metal thing that goes around the very last tooth. Which is bad, I'm not sure what'll happen--but hopefully it's not the tooth itself!! It was odd though--it just happened randomly in the middle of chem, not while I was eating anything chewy or hard. . . very worrisome.
Well, I was on the radio today! lol. . . kinda. I said one thing: "the Holy Roman Emperor" XD Cos the question was like, "which had the least power in the 16th century" and then we got choices. . I don't know. The radio thing was interesting, it went well, I suppose. . . but it's too complicated and I don't feel like explaining it. XP (everyone breathes a sigh of relief--admit it!! ;)
we ended up staying quite late after school. Turns out one of the few things David likes is arguing. Just for the sake of arguing. I like arguing too, but only if it's with a purpose, if both sides are open to new ideas. I like being exposed to other points of view. Yeah, I want to be right, but I want to be right because I am right, not because i have my way or because other people agree with me. Dave just likes to argue -_- Anyway, he's. . . decidedly odd. Because he's completely sane. Rational. Emotionless. David feels it's better to be content all the time than happy some of the time but unhappy some of the time. He wants to maintain one level. I'll be the first to say that dramatic highs and lows are very very bad. But I think you should find a medium between the two--find a level that is right for you. Now I don't know. Maybe David's way is best, but I really don't think so. Like in the Godfather, Nino, who just didn't care enough to stay alive--you have to care! You have to enjoy yourself, enjoy life, be happy! The unhappy times can show that you care--apathy is a killer! ("life slow, think 'why bother,' and leave a note saying good-bye," as Sexton put it in Death: The High Cost of Living) I mean, I don't have any way of proving this, but I feel that. . . well, say there's a general happiness content, a big pool of your happiness, all the happiness you've had in your life. Maybe unhappiness drains the pool a bit, I don't know. But I just have this feeling that the pool will be more full if you do experience--things! Life! The highs and lows! And the happiness is of a better, more satisfying quality than the complacency that David has, your life is fuller. Like a weekend where i sit around and use the computer compared to one where I go out and do something. No, I'm not unhappy sitting at my computer, and I don't get car sick or tired, I don't have to get up, I can sleep. But at the end of the weekend I just feel better having done something. My life is richer. When I go into the city I can get saddened by some of the things I see there. But that doesn't mean I should stop going into the city, because I have a really good time there, that more than balances the sadness. And the sadness, the compassion and caring that I feel, it's important. I shouldn't stop caring to save myself the pain that comes with it. It also makes me, I think, a fuller, better, rounder, more solid person. You can't grow and change if you don't experience. Also, David's mere stability and sanity make him scary and unstable. I don't know. It's not right. What is it that Delirium said about Emperor Norman I? (I love that one!!!) I think it was, "His madness keeps him sane"? It's not normal to be sane!! lol. ;)
( new drawing )
