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some job worries
Jul. 22nd, 2002 04:06 pmhmm. I'm feeling slightly stressed out right now. I'm looking for a job for the remainder of the summer. I'm trying to find something in a park. Well, technically I'm not looking right now. I've made a list of phone numbers that I'm going to call tomorrow, it's a little late now. I hate calling people I don't know and all. I'm not sure if I'm doing this correctly (well, my mom is helping me with what to do and say so that should be all right). I want to get it over with but I'm very nervous at the same time. I want to do like, grunt work that doesn't involve a lot of people contact. Picking up grabage, whatever. One of the problems is that it's very late in the summer to be looking for work. I probably won't have a lot of luck and then I'm not sure what to do. I'd really like to work this summer, but I really do not want it to be at a store or anything. Well, I'd do stocking, but I would not want to work behind a cash register, and I don't think I can avoid it.\
But I don't know. I don't think I'm likely to get a job at any of the places I'm calling because it's too late and because I don't know anyone. I really wanted to get a job doing filing and stuff, but I can't do that because I don't know anyone. It's a pain. And it's worrying and depressing. I definitely want a job this summer, but I can't work with people, and I can't work with little kids (a lot of my friends work at camps) and I might not be able to get a job I can do because I don't have any connections and I really don't want to give up going to New Hampshire.
::sigh:: Well, I shouldn't worry til I know for sure whether or not I'll be able to get a job at any of the parks. I'm not sure what else I could do. It's times like this when I wish I had people skills. I'm almost too shy to even look into getting a job, forget carrying it out!
Oh well. I wonder how much I'll whine when I'm looking for a job as an inker. The mere thought makes me nervous. I should find a goal that has more opportunities.
I'm not sure whether or not I'll volunteer at Bethpage again this year, either. We'll see how the job thing pans out. In terms of college applications the two will probably be of similar merit (I think--I've really very little idea of how these things work. I hope so.) but it won't matter whether or not I get into a college if I can't pay for it. >.< gyaah. Luckily I don't have a lot of expensive hobbies, but I make my parents pay for a lot. I've got a lot of money piled up and also some birthday money, so I'm going to put that in the bank.
gyaah. I hate being stressed out and nervous. but by tomorrow I should have taken care of everything. I'm not sure what to do if I can't get a job.
Anyway. Yesterday we got together with Emily and it was loads of fun. We read Mac Hall :D And then we played Myst!! I haven't played Myst in a long time. It was so cool, and so much fun. We've lost our book, which is a shame because not only is it very helpful, it also is a very good read (the story half, not the walkthrough half). But it didn't matter because Emily had all the codes memorized!! It was wild! :D First we went to the Stoneship Age, which is pretty easy and we all managed to get out of there. Then we went to Channelwood, which is my favorite age. That's probably why I remembered so much about it--I got us in, out, and around Channelwood :D Well, technically Emily got us in ;) lol. But I did everything else. I was very proud of myself--quite a feat, when you consider my poor sense of direction! We went to the Mechanical Age next, which was very, very annoying. We couldn't figure out how to rotate the islands to get the code. So we had to save and quit and find help online. We also got a lot of Selenitic Age cheats because it's got the mazerunner and stuff. So we went back to the Mechanical Age, and it turns out that even once you know how to get to the fortress rotation thing, you just have to muck around to get it to the right places. Trial and error. Very annoying and time consuming. We went to the Selenetic Age and did everything ok. The Mazerunner was kinda boring, but whatever. We had fun matching up the tones in the spaceship. Luckily Emily is in choir, she was able to hold the note 'til we could find the match.
Anyway, it was a lot of fun. I went back and wandered around Channelwood and the Stoneship again today.
Then we all went to IHOP for me and Katie's birthday dinner, and then we went home and wrote a letter to Perin, who is in Switzerland for the summer. She sent us postcards with her address. Ack, speaking of which, I need to actually mail the letter. >.< oops.
I've been having a lot of interesting dreams lately. Last night I dreamed that I was on Who's Line is it Anyway (which was interesting because I've often thought how talented those guys are and how I would be utterly unable to do that) and at first I was talking to Collin, who I was sitting next to, and it rocked because he was really nice and cool, but then it got strange and it wasn't really Who's Line anymore. Then I took a nap and I had a dream which was a mix between Small Gods, Phantom of the Opera, and Maskerade. And a little bit of my own creation. It was quite interesting and nifty.
I found out that the guy who is largely considered to be one of the best students in the class (and kinda my rival. . . it's a long story) got a 3 on his AP. Not sure how I feel about that, except for surprised.
All right. I think that's all for now. bye bye. Sorry about the whining, I know things could be much worse, but I'm still nervous.
update: yeah, I'm feeling better now. What really helped is that I realized if I told my mom how I felt, she'd say I was silly, and then I realized that I was. I'm still kinda nervous about calling the people, but not really, and my parents (particularly my dad) don't expect me to get a job cos it's too late but he's still proud of me for trying (I'm a year ahead of my brother, I think, and Katie's not working this summer either. I'm most likely not going to be working, but at least I tried). And dad suspects, although he's not sure, that volunteering might look better than working for college. I'm not really worried about it, but it'd be nice. If I'm not getting money, I can at least get some nice application padding.
But I don't know. I don't think I'm likely to get a job at any of the places I'm calling because it's too late and because I don't know anyone. I really wanted to get a job doing filing and stuff, but I can't do that because I don't know anyone. It's a pain. And it's worrying and depressing. I definitely want a job this summer, but I can't work with people, and I can't work with little kids (a lot of my friends work at camps) and I might not be able to get a job I can do because I don't have any connections and I really don't want to give up going to New Hampshire.
::sigh:: Well, I shouldn't worry til I know for sure whether or not I'll be able to get a job at any of the parks. I'm not sure what else I could do. It's times like this when I wish I had people skills. I'm almost too shy to even look into getting a job, forget carrying it out!
Oh well. I wonder how much I'll whine when I'm looking for a job as an inker. The mere thought makes me nervous. I should find a goal that has more opportunities.
I'm not sure whether or not I'll volunteer at Bethpage again this year, either. We'll see how the job thing pans out. In terms of college applications the two will probably be of similar merit (I think--I've really very little idea of how these things work. I hope so.) but it won't matter whether or not I get into a college if I can't pay for it. >.< gyaah. Luckily I don't have a lot of expensive hobbies, but I make my parents pay for a lot. I've got a lot of money piled up and also some birthday money, so I'm going to put that in the bank.
gyaah. I hate being stressed out and nervous. but by tomorrow I should have taken care of everything. I'm not sure what to do if I can't get a job.
Anyway. Yesterday we got together with Emily and it was loads of fun. We read Mac Hall :D And then we played Myst!! I haven't played Myst in a long time. It was so cool, and so much fun. We've lost our book, which is a shame because not only is it very helpful, it also is a very good read (the story half, not the walkthrough half). But it didn't matter because Emily had all the codes memorized!! It was wild! :D First we went to the Stoneship Age, which is pretty easy and we all managed to get out of there. Then we went to Channelwood, which is my favorite age. That's probably why I remembered so much about it--I got us in, out, and around Channelwood :D Well, technically Emily got us in ;) lol. But I did everything else. I was very proud of myself--quite a feat, when you consider my poor sense of direction! We went to the Mechanical Age next, which was very, very annoying. We couldn't figure out how to rotate the islands to get the code. So we had to save and quit and find help online. We also got a lot of Selenitic Age cheats because it's got the mazerunner and stuff. So we went back to the Mechanical Age, and it turns out that even once you know how to get to the fortress rotation thing, you just have to muck around to get it to the right places. Trial and error. Very annoying and time consuming. We went to the Selenetic Age and did everything ok. The Mazerunner was kinda boring, but whatever. We had fun matching up the tones in the spaceship. Luckily Emily is in choir, she was able to hold the note 'til we could find the match.
Anyway, it was a lot of fun. I went back and wandered around Channelwood and the Stoneship again today.
Then we all went to IHOP for me and Katie's birthday dinner, and then we went home and wrote a letter to Perin, who is in Switzerland for the summer. She sent us postcards with her address. Ack, speaking of which, I need to actually mail the letter. >.< oops.
I've been having a lot of interesting dreams lately. Last night I dreamed that I was on Who's Line is it Anyway (which was interesting because I've often thought how talented those guys are and how I would be utterly unable to do that) and at first I was talking to Collin, who I was sitting next to, and it rocked because he was really nice and cool, but then it got strange and it wasn't really Who's Line anymore. Then I took a nap and I had a dream which was a mix between Small Gods, Phantom of the Opera, and Maskerade. And a little bit of my own creation. It was quite interesting and nifty.
I found out that the guy who is largely considered to be one of the best students in the class (and kinda my rival. . . it's a long story) got a 3 on his AP. Not sure how I feel about that, except for surprised.
All right. I think that's all for now. bye bye. Sorry about the whining, I know things could be much worse, but I'm still nervous.
update: yeah, I'm feeling better now. What really helped is that I realized if I told my mom how I felt, she'd say I was silly, and then I realized that I was. I'm still kinda nervous about calling the people, but not really, and my parents (particularly my dad) don't expect me to get a job cos it's too late but he's still proud of me for trying (I'm a year ahead of my brother, I think, and Katie's not working this summer either. I'm most likely not going to be working, but at least I tried). And dad suspects, although he's not sure, that volunteering might look better than working for college. I'm not really worried about it, but it'd be nice. If I'm not getting money, I can at least get some nice application padding.
